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[Jul. 8th, 2005|01:49 am] |
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I've suddenly found that I'm pissed at myself. I would rather sit at home typing my thoughts about life instead of sharing them with people that matter. Have we really stopped associtating with each other just to tell the fucked up parts of our lifes on a machine. Is there no comfort left in confiding with a friend? LiveJoural, myspace,and the internet as a whole is just a tool for isolation. This is benefiting no one.
G'night. |
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[Jun. 21st, 2005|05:39 pm] |
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| | CKY! | ] |
So I'm sick and it sucks. I woke up @ 6:30 with a 103.3 temp. yeah it sucked! and then what happens nexted? a fucking flat tire. I know its karma. ahhh fuck karma. at least I looked cute today.
so yeah....
I had some friends over at my house last night. We watched the best movie ever...The Boondock Saints. It's completely amazing. Speechlessness.
So I decided that I do want a tattoo after all. I've been debating for awhile now. Is it too cliche? Guys with tattoos are hot indeed. But girls with stupid butterflys, four leaf clovers, hearts and shooting stars (wow ummm lucky charms comes to mind) are so cliche and so gay. But if I get a tattoo I want one on my foot. and I think I figured out what I want. I'm thinking a little gun on the side top of my foot. Totally kick ass!
yes yes well chunk duece...I'm going to watch another movie... |
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[Jun. 6th, 2005|06:24 pm] |
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| | The Verve Pipe- THe Freshman | ] |
I love Summer! I love crazy drunken nights! I love sitting by a pool all freaking day! I love Ava's house at night! I love freaking waiters in Galveston out! I love lifegaurds at the beach having to swim out to just because Emily freaks out over a fish jumping onto her raft. I love stupid text messages at two in the morning. I love coming home at three. I love waking up not really knowing where I am. I love Margaritas. I love drunk calls to mom. I love my job. I love bathing suits. I love tea with Brittany. I love North Shore Baseball games. I love not being able to stop laughing. I love Alex P. and Chris C. trying to confuse the hell out of me and Emily D. I love 4-hour dance recitals for the stroksters. I love summer! |
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| Nights we can't remember with friends we won't forget |
[May. 15th, 2005|08:58 pm] |
Did we do the damn thing last night? Oh I believe we did.
Lost people.
Evan being on fire.
Drunkeness.
Broken things...phones ,bottles and hands.
Beer, alot of beer.
Watermelon.
48 Hotdogs.
sneezing/puking
Falling down.
Car switching.
Tree Climbing.
Making out.
Being Late home.
Cleaning Up.
Finding people passed out.
Random Drunken Text messages and phone calls.
5 minutes.
Keg in the trunk.
AND Nights we can't remember with friends we won't forget! |
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[May. 13th, 2005|05:31 pm] |
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If you marry me, would you bury me?
Would you carry me to the end?
Sosaygoodbyetothevowsyoutake,
andsaygoodbyetothelifeyoumake,
andsaygoodbyetotheheartsyoubreak
andallthecyanideyoudrank. |
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[May. 4th, 2005|06:52 pm] |
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| | Collide by Howie Day! | ] |
Yesterday SUCKED! I cried for about two hours...then cried again today. I called Courteney and she told me everything will be ok...God! I hope so.
I am mad at God. I know I shoudn't be. but I don't understand why bad things happen to good people. People you love the most. Twice at that. I feel so abandoned by him. It just sucks. Everything this week has gone wrong and I just sit here waiting for the next horrible thing to happen to me.
Pray for my Dad Please.
xoxox |
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| OMG! I get physics. |
[Apr. 27th, 2005|06:44 pm] |
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| | Hypocritical sluts make bad friends | ] |
Tonight I sat down to do my physics homework planning on not finishing it let alone understand it, BUT I nderstand it. This is moumental! omg! crazy.
This weekend it gonna be fun! I'm going to Dallas to get a family photo and a b-b-q and Amanda gets to go! YAY! not so boring. We are gonna go to her friends band show thing in Dallas on friday. That should be fun! I'm so excited. I wonder if my cousin is riding in a rodeo this weekend. That would be cool. (he rides bulls) Yay! It's gonna be fun...leave Humble for at least sometime...ah too much drama here!
I <3 life.
Emily D. and I have gone to the mall EVERYDAY this week. Wow! Shopaholics? I think so! I bought shoes monday, then turned in a job app. yesterday and then today bought some shirts from buckle today. There was this guy there today, joey?, he's my new favorite person! lol!
Yes, I'm bored!
xoxoxoxoxo |
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[Apr. 18th, 2005|05:10 pm] |
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Yay for me! i have no school tomorrow. |
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| The "Zoo" |
[Apr. 10th, 2005|01:01 pm] |
This weekend was so awesome.
Friday: School! We has some crazy assembly on not drinking and driving. It was so gross and sad. Brittany and I cried. Then the rest of the school day blew. Whatever. I stayed after to make-up work so I could pass. What? 61 to a 76. woop! It's not great but I'm passing. Then Friday night I really didn't do anything. I was home alone so I could have but I didn't. I watched the divine secrets of the ya-ya sisterhood. twice.
Saturday: I was so excited to go to the beach I woke up at like 8! I again was home alone. I did laundry, packed, cleaned a little bit, went shopping and picked up Emily. We hung out at my house until like 2ish and then left to go to Bolivar to Johns beach house. It was so much fun. We went to the "zoo" which was intresting. Emily, Ryan G., and I swam. It wasn't that cold. It was really nice actually. Then we came back to get the fire started. That was fun. Pete, Zach, Emily and I went to buy firewood (which we didn't need. We got the fire started. Had Hot dogs, then a bunch of drama started. It was gay! So We left about 9ish! Emily and I got soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo lost! Yeah that lost!
We made it back about 11:30ish! Thank God! Came home and passed out! I slept for 12 hours! Omgsh! that's alot!
Sunday: Today! will be fun cause I'm making it fun! and Monday will be too! Astroworld anybody??
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox |
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| When did my brain stop functioning? |
[Apr. 7th, 2005|09:20 pm] |
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I can't seem to finish what I started (wow story of my life):
"Their eyes connected and a silent agreement was made.
He approached her and the lights fell low and the world disappeared.
the unfamiliar bodies touched forbiddingly.
Slow and clumbsy were their movements.
while the room was lonely and quite, their thoughts were loud and chaotic.
out of the empty back into the vivacious room
they walk away from each other as if their innocence was still intact."
ok yeah yeah I know it sucks. thats why you should help me out. Hey strokey be deep...lol!
So yeah! I'm in like a permanent state of hyper/happy, while inside I feel totally different. Don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed or sad. I've just been looking at life a little differently. I feel artsy. If you can even feel "artsy". I don't know. I'm in my classy mood. I've wanted to listen to classical music or acoustic stuff....yeah I know way different. Just mellower music. When I'm thinking I'm really tapping into my thoughts. I even want to dress differently. I don't know. I think I'm babbling. Weird. My friend was in Rome when the Pope died. That's so amazing. not that the he died just that she was there. Lucy and her mom were in Switzerland and then flew to Italy. He passed away like a day before they were supposed to leave but decided to stay to I guess soak up the experience. I'm so jealous. My mom keeps saying how she wishes she could see Rome, all of Italy. I wish there was someway my mom and I could travel more. I hate that my mom is so limited and my dad can do whatever he wants. It sucks. I love traveling. I could careless if I slept in a car and had to sing on the street for money for food, if I was in Europe or somewhere other than the fakest country in the world I would be living THE life. Ahh How amazing would that be. alrighty. I think I "poured out my soul" enough tonight and I'm glad I babbled my entire way through this entry! Muchlove! |
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[Apr. 6th, 2005|08:52 pm] |
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Just hearing the hum of your voice
I slowly slip away into my thoughts
and stealing glances from a distant table in the back of the restraunt
You touch my hand and you come back into focus
You see the blank expression on my face and you ask me if everything is ok
I flash a smile and nod my head giving you the sign to being giving me your theory on love and life...again
and I sink into deep dark personal thoughts that my lips with never form and you will never hear.
These eyes, they lie
with intentions of the worst sort
and these wrists are scarred from the pain I've felt
this is my cry for help
The server brings us our check and you pay for dinner
you help me put on my coat and we walk to the door
I take one final glace at the distant table and turn away
We walk into the cold and wait for the car
With a slam of a door we speed away to an empty loft
I dress for the night and slip into bed knowing that while you sleep I could get away
back to the occupant of the distant table and know happiness
but I sink into deep dark personal thoughts that my lips with never form and you will never hear.
These eyes, they lie
with intentions of the worst sort
and these wrists are scarred from the pain I've felt
this is my cry for help
I know morning will come and my feelings wont change
it's been this cold for years
we'll play out the day just like always
and I'll think of leaving but stay
and just steal glances at that distant table
and I sink into deep dark personal thoughts that my lips with never form and you will never hear. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|03:47 pm] |
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Hey Ya'll! I've been so happy for like the past week. I don't know why nothing special has happened. I'm just loving life. Prom is this weekend. I can't wait until next year! It's gonna be so much fun. Brittany said we should go to South Padre. That's a long ass drive. :( We'd get there like what @ 2 in the morning.
My doggie was stuck in a room today cause my mom shut the door on her. I felt bad. She was excited to get out. So Tedoe was lonely. awwww!
I got my tanning membership re-newed! That makes me happy. I like tanning, it's like relaxing. Today when I went I didn't have googles so I freaked out and layed weird and now have funny lines. Urgh. oh well they'll fade at least I hope they will.
This entry is pretty much pointless. I don't think many people care about my tanning, or my doggie being locked up. lol
I'm thinking about dying my hair back blonde. I need your opinions. Leave a comment if I should or shouldn't. Yay! It's like pole of the day.
I'm excited about this weekend. I'm gonna be having some fun. yes and for all you losers that don't trust me it's gonna be ALCOHOL FREE!!!! :) :) |
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[Apr. 4th, 2005|03:14 pm] |
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Cheers to you,
i know i got what i wanted. |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2005|03:50 pm] |
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| | Annie - Vanessa Carlton | ] |
Yo! So I'm realllllllly bored! I took both my doggies for a walk today. They liked it. I got my sandy cohen eyebrows fixed and my nails did! yes matt I am ghetto fabulous! lol so anyways today was a bust. Nothing too exciting happened!
I've come to realize some people in my life I don't need. I'm over the negativity the bring. I'm so sick of having to watch what I say and do just to please them. I can't believe I've wasted time on these people and tried to impress them. I am dumb. I'm me! If you dont like it so what...find a new friend.
I've totally given up drinking. Not like I drank all the time I only socially drink but I figured out that I don't need to drink to have a good time. I'm sick of people saying that I won't last and drink like nexted weekend. Thanks guys you suck.
I'm excited about next weekend. Woop LONG weekend. I'm happy about that!
Ohh I'm passing all my classes except physics but I have a 67 in there. 3 points from passing! Yes It's not the usual 41! woooo! I'm trying I really am!
Monday some of us need to go to Astroworld. I think it would be fun. Or Galveston. Or downtown shopping. Let's plan something. |
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| A better note! |
[Apr. 2nd, 2005|11:25 am] |
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| | The Killers | ] |
Yay! I'm so glad so many people feel the same way I do (see last entry...lol) But here is a better nicer one!
I started my job yesterday. I work @ the nastiest place with the dumbest people ever! Then I took a break, when I came back it was fun! I work like the crappiest hours ever. Again who wants Ice cream @ 6:00 AM! C'mon! Yes Yes It's fun and I can make like the best smoothie ever! Maui Mango- apple juice, one scoop banana, one scoop strawberry, two scoops mango, 2 pumps of mango juice, ice and blend! ahhh made so many!!! People who are nice rock my world! Yay! and i got 6.00 in tips! woop...yeah real woop! So yes!
So next part of night: I got off work about 10:00. I went home and put on normal clothes and went to John C.'s! Yay! I <3 those guys! yes yes I feel so bad fo james cause they were mean to him last night. and now evan and James are mad at me! that's cool! so anyways! It's like 11:00 and nothing is happening and we are just standing in the street watching Taylor climb a light pole(he made it to the top Kat and I have pics to prove it) and Avery beat the crap outta Aric! Everyone starts to leave so I give lots of hugs and say bye! Aric was going fishing. I went with him! Well that was intresting. The story is that we caught 3 huge fish, and Aric killed a guy! lol We left Johns and went to like some quikie mart and bought hot dogs. Eww so gross! They got me to eat one...I thought I was gonna throw up! It was so gross...but I ate it...lol! I suck ass at throwing the line out! wow! It's been a while! But it was fun! I was supposed to be home at 12 but yeah got in at 1:00! oops! hahaha You only live once! Yes Aric! We relocate our lines! The infamous quote by Taylor..."If you caught something everytime it would be called catching, not fishing." hahaha
Do you need some meat or a hot dog? Where is the meat? -that's what she said! hahahaha omg...I had so much fun last night! So I walk in the door at like 1ish and my mom wasn't mad...I hadn't been drinking...I was fishing and she was like totally okay with it! I was like YES! I <3 doing stuff like that! woop woop!
Well I have work at 2 so I'm gonna be bored til then. And get off at ten and come home and be bored Cause sunday, dumb people have to buy ice cream at 6 in the morning!
xoxoxoxoxox |
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| This is for all who suck! |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|03:38 pm] |
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If you think I give fuck of what anyone says about me...you don't know me. This is for everyone who is closeminded and stupid. So okay here I go:
1. If you stop listening to music because that band or person has made it big, you're stupid! Why would you stop listening to music you like? C'mon. Music never changes it's the same everytime you hear it. It's always awesome just like when you first heard the song. So get over the fact that someone totally different from you likes your music!
2. If you call someone a poser because of something they do, you are so fucking gay! OoOo I used lyrics from a Norma Jean song.. Fuck off! Omg...That's so stupid!
3. Ava I totally agree! or if you were a certain type of clothes, you're not a poser, it's just your style. so if one day someone decided to wear stilletos then the next converse...GET THE FUCK OVER it's not that big of a deal.
To all you so called Hardcore or emo kids that say gay shit like that...be a little more open-minded! Hmm...Your trying to be different? Your not...your like every other sorry wanna be badass! If you want to be different...don't listen to the same type of music or wear the same type of clothes, or hang out with the same people everyday...do something outta the normal. There is more to life then being in one clique or having one idea of cool! You guys are so old with this whole...omg...she's preppy she can't listen to that...bleh! Cry me a freaking river!
So again This is for everyone who thinks they are cool, who is close-minded and stupid. Get over yourselves! |
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[Mar. 28th, 2005|03:14 pm] |
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Today was intresting! I love those days where you know people are talking about you...hmmm? Physics was fun today! I knew like what was going on and I participated and omgsh I knew stuff! lol and then we had a total recap of Friday night...including broken headboards (not by me) me and amanda not being able to stop dancing, squeaky beds, the crack, squeaky floors, beer cans and paper towels,slutty weird girls trying to rape Chris, over dramatic girls and nymphos. hahahaha omg! Well yeah that was always fun!
I <3 Courteney Lynn Taylor!
DBQ def. sucked today. I wrote really really really big...:(
Grey's Anatomy is sooooo good! I <3 it xamillion!
Well yes i think it is time for a nap cause I'm tired as hell!
xoxoxoxo, Casey Rhea Clark! |
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[Mar. 27th, 2005|07:23 pm] |
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My Awesome Kick Ass Weekend!
Thursday Night: Brittany and I went to the Woodlands Mall to get James a birthday present. We got him a shirt from Abercromie and Fitch and flip-flops from American Eagle!
Friday Day: James Fucking Noorlag's 18th B-day! MUD WRESTLING!! Omg! I've never has so much fun! I was the first one down! Psh Evan tackling me! AHhhh!
Friday Night: hahaha Brits party! hmmm Dancing! a lot! like the whole night...on the table and upstairs and sliding down stairs and dancing some more! If you'll be a nympho then I'll be a nympho...so suductive! hahahahahahaa omg! I <3 Amanda Lynn! hahaha
Saturday: Cleaned, Slepted, Fed bunny rabbits with Carl and Emily! I <3 the bunnies! Then went to Tommy's!
Naked Boys in the hot tub...Aric and Taylor shooting darts at each other with a dart gun! So freaking funny! I <3 those guys! The sad part is that they were sober! That's really sad!
Sunday: EASTER!!!!!!! Dinner with Dad....fighting with both parents....praying for brit! Hopefully her mom wont ground her forever! I'm so sorry! If there is anything I can do...Call me girl! |
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[Mar. 26th, 2005|06:37 pm] |
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| | aggravated | ] |
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| | Me and Emily singing! | ] |
DON'T EVER TEST ME AGAIN. I just don't get it. You seem to avoid me but you tell me your busy and I try and understand. So the one night you get a chance to hang out, you "test" me. You're low. very low. I've been honest with you, and yet you still cant trust my word. I'm about to give up if you can't show me you care, cause everyone knows I've been here all along. Don't try to talk sweet and uses cheesy crap on me. You better come up with a real good explaination. And what your accusing me of...never happened. I can play this game also. Just to let you know. I'm really good at it. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2005|07:48 pm] |
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I suck at life.
I was thinking today about the irony in hating or disliking people. I mean the people I seem to not like are people exactly like me. I mean there is this one person that comes to me that I dislike very much and they feel the same way about me and we are so much alike. We like the same things, we dress similar and even act alike but we hate each other. We should be like best friends. I dont know it's very weird.
and I was thinking more today about relationship. It really sucks when all you want to hear someones voice on the telephone or see their face and they are no where to be found or don't have two seconds to see how you are. They can talk to your friends about you and act weird, but doesn't seem to try to fix it. I understand people are busy and maybe I am being a little over dramatic but It makes me sad and feel terrible about myself. It just sucks. So Just a reminder...Call the ones you care about, because if you don't it seems as if they don't matter. I waited up so late just because you said you would call and you didn't. That hurts.
I hate Humble! I hate the water, I hate the airports, I hate the school, I hate the roads, I hate anything and everything about this town. I wish I could go back to Greenville. Time seemed slower, cows and hay was what you saw going to school, not people pushing down trees for ugly houses. Everyone knows everyone but there is still mystrey that goes around town. And there is a farmers market! omg...like real non-altered fruits and vegetables. I miss going to my grandparents house and feeding the horses and bottle-feeding the new calfs. I miss Zeb. I miss my granmere and that crazy tax office. I miss going to Rockwall to shop or starbucks. I miss circle-b and the really gross food but getting to hear all the stories about my grandfather and his youthful days. I miss walks through the cemetary( ok little weird but it's by my grandparents house) I miss my cousin. I miss commerce street. I miss CBs burgers they were the best. I miss laughing at Adam and his cute country accent. I miss sitting on the porch watching the sun set while doing my homework. I miss hastings and the pope on a rope... I miss Jacobia and Merit. I miss my church. I miss it so much!
I wish I could leave everything here and go back there! ugh!
Well Yes I suck at life. |
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